A deep sense of loneliness and melancholy persisted throughout my day. Being ignored by so called friends and getting weird vibes from people at work I descended into a mood of self loathing and depression. Laziness reigned and I pretty much did not leave the couch. All this ended with me indulging in a sugar filled binge which while initially perking me up has only further deepened my self hatred. As I mapped out a plan of attack on how to stop with this self hatred I realized something very very important. Something I have always know but choose to forget so as to save myself from being a sociopath. (Although in small doses this sort of thing can really work and be okay, I am sure of it…) Let me just say fuck them, fuck this, fuck it. So you people wanna ignore me? Go ahead, your obviously too good and too fabulous for me. Wanna give me weird vibes for doing nothing? Okay, sure whatever. Because fuck it. I am doing me and only me. I will not worry about what others are thinking. SO I don’t have friends, never had any luck in that area anyways so why start now. I have other shit to do. I am not going to waste my time on people who really don’t care about me.